Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I don't wanna go!

I don't wanna go to work today! I'm tired and grumpy. Unfortunately I need to go.

What happened to my younger days where I had no qualms about calling in sick when I wasn't really sick? Where I didn't care if I used up my vacation time? Where playing 'hookey' as a 'mental health day' was a viable reason to place that phone call? Now I feel guilty. I can't lie. And people are depending on me. I guess the upside is that I feel needed. Appreciated??? Not really. But needed, yes. As part of a team I have to play my part for the sake of the team.

In many ways, it's come down to my sense of loyalty. I am intensely loyal to my immediate team of coworkers. I am frustrated by the company I work for and feel that they (the big picture) don't appreciate our group or what we do.

I feel like there is no room for growth and that frustrates me. I've let management know that I'm interested. But there is no room. I've even suggested levels within a position. So, if there is no room for growth...where is my incentive to perform? And why the heck don't I just call in sick???

Dang parents of mine...how dare they teach me about responsibility and loyalty! :-) Ok...I'm going to go get my shower and get headed off to another day at work.



Marcia P @ The Stamp Spot said...

Jane I laughed reading this - I have to be at work in 37mins and am procrastinating, checking my Google reader thinking up an excuse to call in sick. Haven't had a shower, no hair or makeup done. But I know deep down I won't call in sick, because it would mean extra work for those there to cover my absence and I love those ladies too much to do it to them! Thank you for making me smile - oh I miss those days when I needed to have a 'wellness' day!


Jamie said...

Good for you, Jane! Hopefully you feel better and had a productive day!

Kristine B. said...

Oh Jane...I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, but I know that you are not alone by a long shot!! Lots feel the same way. I'm one, I'll admit. I have to be really sick to call in, but I also am given a lot of leniency when it comes to taking off to go to my kids' school for things. Well, I hope that they will see your loyalty and appreciate and consider that when someone does open up. Either that or that should be considered if/when you need a reference from them? (not suggesting anything, just if something better did happen to come by you). Big hugsXXX - Your SBS4 sisters are here for ya ♥